Well, I’m on what LOOKS like a crash diet, and what I’m doing is acting like one. Many “cleanse” diets capitalize on the effects of sodium depletion/water loading to rid your body of water weight and make you think you’re losing actual body mass quite quickly–remember, a few pounds less or more on either side of your normal weight probably means nothing more than you have more or less water sitting around in your body. As a strength athlete looking to weigh in as light as possible while still retaining my normal body composition, I look to manipulating water retention levels in order to make weight to my advantage.
This process isn’t easy, and if you’re a lightweight lifter, it can be difficult to eat foods at the volume you normally eat that do not contain lots of carbs and/or sodium but give you a comparable caloric exchange. Olive oil has NO sodium in it but fills entirely less of my stomach than, say, Greek yogurt. Spending day after day feeling like you’re not eating anything even if you’re getting a comparable amount of calories to what you normally eat is shitty. It just is. I have traveled the anorexia path (and well beyond it, thankfully), and the resonance with those days that has danced along the edge of the water weight cut experience for me is slightly haunting. I am prone to being overanxious, and trying to manage my diet in the way I must in order to successfully weigh in on Friday is both logistically difficult and one that causes me to confront some of the darkest times of my psychological history to date. My goal is to learn the process of weight cutting and normalize it such that it is not a mental burden in this manner. It is not a process that will happen overnight, or with one weight cut. Or two. It’s a hard process, but what I AM learning is that pushing myself through it not only physically but mentally is spurring growth and understanding that can only strengthen me for the future.
Take a look at this screen shot to get an idea the “science experiment” aspect of this process:
I’m sure this chart looks OCD as hell. It is this spreadsheet, as well as one documenting my intake, that has helped me manipulate this process. Please note that the weight being documenting/followed in February starts at the day after I had a cheat meal–and a freaking HUGE one, therefore I weighed a hell of a lot more than I typically do–down to the night before the final day of my weight cut for that trial week. I started out this week at what is much more normal a weight for me, as demonstrated by the first number for the week of the 15th.
More to come regarding this process. I may write a more comprehensive guide sheet for women’s weight cutting after I do this meet–my site has been getting a relatively solid amount of traffic from people running “women cutting water weight” or “women weight cut” or “women make weight” through google.
I will now leave you with this image of my abdomen. Every day I wake up during this trial, my abs look different. I think tomorrow will probably be the day I get more pictures of them as well as what my body composition has been doing lately. SKIN. SKIN EVERYWHERE.